i'm more taken aback and shocked than angry or anything along that line. i just never would have thought that you would have said such things about us. in a state of anger, in a state of anger, in a state of anger. i wish i could just erase the whole part of me reading whatever i read and just chuck it away and i wish that things would go back to what they were taking away anyone being left out. i wish all of us would have our good days together again. i wish there were never all these conflicts or misunderstandings. why is it that these kinda conflicts tend to bring people closer together but only manage to tear us further apart? i wish i could erase everything, take us back to the beginning and start over

sometimes you just hate how everything seems to be going against you and you just feel like giving everything up. you wish there was a way to change the way you saw things, but you're already at your breaking point. you feel so helpless and hopeless yet you know that you shouldnt be only because what you're going through is just a fraction of what many others out there are going through. you feel so stupid and selfish but there's nothing you can do to stop feeling this way. and i hate how its always seems like it's me against the world

today was just about feeling stupid and naive. and i thought listening compre was tough enough, i didnt know that gp would be a million times worse. i just stared at my comprehension passage like some dumbfuck who didn't know what in the world the english language was. and then i got back two of my lit essays of which i did really badly for. god, why am i so dumb. and then there was the stupid thing i had to find out. and you feel so stupid for believing in what people tell you, when you know its all lies, but you're just happily being deceived. okay i'm just dumb, just fucking dumb and stupid and naive and all of that and whatever

that's quite enough for tonight. i've got a long day tmrw, wish me luck

--edit,
thank you jareth stupid boy for this > 2 Corinthians 4:8 "we are OFTEN TROUBLED, but not CRUSHED; sometimes in DOUBT, but never in DESPAIR; there are many enemies, but we are never without a friend(me :)); and though badly hurt at times, we are NOT DESTORYED". i really miss my bestfriends :( meet up soon please girls

(( slashes & cuts ))